Now, I was thankful to be able to go, but the stress and anxiety of going for three months is what consumed my mind. I actually thought maybe things will be so serious that Global Awakening would be concerned for our lives due to ISIS and cancel the trip. Yes, I really thought that. I know it sounds silly, but that is what I thought. I am so thankful that the trip wasn’t cancelled and even more thankful to Christ for loving me enough to supernaturally heal, deliver and show me how much He really did love me. It is amazing to me how the Lord wants us out of our comfort zone…He just wants to use us. He wants to use desperate and hungry people for the Kingdom. I have to say…I was desperate. I didn’t want to come back home the same way and I knew I had to be 100% on board with the ministry Whit was starting…I was on board mentally, but not really on board emotionally and spiritually. If that even makes sense.
I am sure you are wondering what happened, what I saw, what did He do…that sort of thing. Well, I can tell you many stories of seeing the Lord heal physically and emotionally….I saw salvations, supernatural touches from the Lord and I could go on and on, but I want to share this one thing that will forever be part of my personal testimony. The Lord changed my life. Isn’t that what we really want? We really want to be changed and touched by the Lord? We want to be changed but without a price. We exchange something for radical change. If you want radical change, you have to be willing to let go of pride, fear, dignity, and anything else that may be a barrier between you and the Lord. Christ wants ALL of us. He wants our obedience and we have to be willing to “let go” of things for the change.
We were in a Presbyterian church every morning for worship, teaching and prayer; but as Randy Clark began to teach, I began to feel the Lord minister to me and it just intensified over the next hour and a half. As time goes on for me, I will go into more detail, but for two hours, I felt His presence like never before (well, I had abrief encounter with two ladies in the lobby—Jo and Katherine and it lasted about 15 minutes—this encounter would be just the beginning). This encounter in the church happened with no one praying or touching me and in church! During this time the Lord showed me how much HE loved me and how I would be totally set free of fear of man that had plagued me all my life and I will share two things I remember. ONE—I saw Hannah and I ministering together and TWO—the Lord gently and sweetly said to me that Aaron-Sophia would not be left behind and that she would be apart of what the Lord had for our family. I knew that Aaron-Sophia would be passionate about Him and serve Him along side of us…something I worried about. This encounter totally changed my life…we have to know our purpose and know He loves us as well…
If we don’t really believe….I mean, really believe that HE loves us then how can we minister HIS love to others? We can’t. I now know without a doubt that He loves me. HE loves me. The Creator of ALL things…Loves me. ME!!! I also have been freed of fear that has kept me from my destiny. I have missed many opportunities because I was worried about what people thought or was afraid at failing miserably trying something new. One more thing, I was raised in church all my life and loved the Lord since a young age, but something always has held me back. Now, being confident in the Lord and His love for me and his deliverance of fear, I can honestly say…I am just now stepping into the destiny He has for me and the ride has just begun—not just for me but our entire family. I pray that the Lord show you just how much HE loves you….
I pray that in the months to come that something that is written in this e-mail will encourage you even more to seek the Lord.