been HURT to see how Christ can heal and move you forward in life and not remain
in the PIT. I have so many different emotions about things that Hannah was exposed
to or that happened to her, but there is HEALING in sharing a small portion of our
story. Thankfully, I have seen the hand of God touch her and totally change her life
…100%. I see Hannah as someone that does not see herself as a VICTIM.
When Hannah was about 8-10 years old another female introduced her to porn and
sexually abused her…did things that are too painful for me to know about. Whit knows.
She and Whit are very close and for that I am truly thankful. When she got to 5th
or 6th grade a boy did things to her that shouldn’t be done at school. I wondered
where the teachers were when it was going on…a Christian School at that. Of
course,…she wasn’t a Christian and at the age of 11 she was diagnosed with
Asperger’s Syndrome. So…all those times during this time frame Hannah took out
her frustration on me…I had no idea that any of this had happened. Nothing. So,
you can imagine how I felt when she told me these things about three years ago…I
still don’t know everything, but there are times I see her pain with things that Satan
himself torments her with and I am moved with compassion and want to see the enemy
defeated, but I also see the seriousness of this walk we are on….
See, we know for a fact that Satan wanted her to commit SUICIDE… to have an
ABORTION… to be committed to a MENTAL FACILITY… he told us these things.
Through Hannah… Satan spoke it and told us in a manifested way when these
events were to happen in her life as if it were all mapped out to happen at
designatedtimes. He wanted to KILL her and HE hates what God is doing in her
life. When shetold me three years ago, I was ANGRY and felt so GUILTY. God
had already started the process of healing and delivering her, but I was so sad and
angry as a mom because we didn’t protect her. Our job as parents is to protect our
children because we love them.
Whit and I tried to do everything right…or so we thought. As a parent, you will not
be able to protect your kids from everything…youcan’t and I can’t. Even when you
are the Godliest parent and present parent…things happen out of your control.
Things happen that can destroy your life, your marriageand then in the midst of all
the chaos and turmoil…Jesus shows up on your behalf and RESCUES your loved
one or you or me… That is exactly what HE did…He RESCUED Hannah. Now
we are at that place where we don’t care if people choose to believe OR not to
believe in the
SUPERNATURAL…but the supernatural EXISTS. We were exposed to it firsthand.
There is good and evil and both desire your loved ones…God himself desires you
and your family…Satan himself desires that we die in a pit with despair…he wants
you and I unable to be used for the Glory of God. When God rescues you…and
sets you free…you are a force for the KINGDOM OF GOD HERE ON EARTH.
There are times that I am overwhelmed with life…with the future…with all the
things the enemy would like to distract me with. With what happened to Hannah…
from earlyon trying to raise Hannah things were so difficult that there were times
I wanted toleave and never come back again because I really felt hopeless…but
the LORD inHIS KINDNESS and LOVE for my family RESCUED all of us. If I think
long and hard about what has happened to my child…from a boy threatening her
and blackmailing her for several years because of pictures he had that she gave
him willingly; to a woman calling her and telling her she was filthy and dirty (yes…
that really happened) becauseof what women gossiped about. Yes…Christian
women gossiped about her…I can get really angry…but then I look at my child and
she says to me, “mom, you have to forgive them”…what does a parent say to that?
I am the adult. I’m amazed as I write this…Jesus cleans us up. He heals us. JESUS.
Hannah doesn’t let what has happened to her keep her from moving forward…from
keeping her eyes off the finish line. See, those that have been forgiven much…and
she is much more of a mature believer than I am. She isn’t using that as an excuse.
I see her every day spend quality time with the LORD. I am not bragging…I am just
stating a fact. It’s challenging for me…its convicting that I can’t sit here and say I give
Christ what is due him every day…but there are sacrifices that go with being so sold
out to HIM. Not everyone is walking this journey or understands her. Even Jesus
was misunderstood and the religious hated HIM.
WE must not sacrifice Jesus for stuff or people or anything…I must not either. We
should not let our pasts define us…we should move forward with the LORD…with
our eyes fixed on HIM. FIXED. We should not be distracted with what the enemy
says to us or lies we believe that can torment us. See the world may remind you
of your past…but JESUS WON’T. He wants you FREE. He wants your eyes and
affections on HIM. Don’t let people define who you are. Don’t let your past define
who you are. To the mom out there, don’t let GUILT define who you are or keep you
from focusing on JESUS. Jesus is here…He loves you and I. IT is HIS desire you
become free and live victoriously. You don’t have to stay in the pit…Jesus is there
to extend HIS hand to pull you out…even if indescribable things have happened to
you. He is with you… NOW.